In the recent thread I have given a lot of thought ....., Dannie speaks of keeping the same femme name as her male name in order to reflect that all aspects of her psyche are integrated. She does not feel she has separate male and female selves.
This gave rise to a few questions.
I'm sure there will be as many different viewpoints are there are people in this forum. But for now, I would prefer a CDer's outlook since I imagine TSs have no issues with integrating feminine personality traits, as obviously they are women to begin with.
In Dannie's thread, Satrana put it best:
I take Satrana's explanation to mean a CDer feels, while young, that he will be rejected by his family, peers, and society if he allows them to see his more feminine self, hence the compartmentalization. For now, I'll define femininity by describing myself as compared to the stereotypical male: being gentle and compassionate, having a lack of aggressiveness and a more cooperative approach to life than the traditional male competitiveness, feeling free to express emotion (in private .. mature GGs also do not like to cry in public), or perhaps having a lack of interest in traditional male pursuits preferring the gentler pastimes such as developing a taste for fine arts, dancing, music and the like. I read once a theory explaining that an urge to dress in a feminine manner develops as a way to provide an outlet for repressed femininity. I do not know if this is a valid explanation.
I do know many non-TG men who are not stereotypically macho. They are gentle and sensitive in a way that every woman dreams of finding in a partner. I've raised my sons to be like this. They are all very compassionate and nurturing. One of my sons is artistic. The other even loves to shop for clothes. The middle is sensitive to a degree I've seldom seen in a GG. I do not know if they display different, (more manly?) behaviors when they are in the company of other males alone, although I've noticed they were slightly more dogmatic in the presence of their males friends than in female company. I do know they are well liked by everyone and no one makes fun of them. My sons and the other gentle men I know seem to have integrated what might traditionally be defined as feminine personality traits. I do prefer to call these traits human, as I do not believe GGs have exclusive rights to them.
First question:
Why has integration been more difficult for TGs, or is there more to it? Does a GM who develops a female gender identity experience more than a difficulty integrating feminine emotion and personality traits? My SO once told me that having his feminine self allowed him to develop an interest in art and ballroom dancing. I never did ask how to explain GMs who love to engage in these activities and who are not TG or gay.
Second question:
If there had never been an issue with integrating the femininity (if I've defined it correctly above) with the male physical self, would there still be a love, or a need, or a sexual thrill for presenting female?
Which leads me to my last question:
Why does being treated as a woman bring such a sense of elation, and what does being treated as a woman mean to you? How is it different than being treated as a male? It seems this would have nothing to do with integrating compassion, gentleness and sensitivity in one's personality?
Many thanks for your responses and for your continued patience with my questions.