I know you've since retracted this statement, but I don't think it's so bad. I always wanted to be a girl, but I never felt 100% girly. I played with Legos, not Barbie dolls. We are not crossdressers who have the "my panties are frillier than yours" attitude of constantly trying to outdo each other's pseudo-femininity (not that all crossdressers have that attitude, either).Originally Posted by Hephaestus
About hormones, everybody is different. I'm not sure exactly where you're coming from. At first you wanted to still get erections. But now that your wife is OK with it would you prefer not to have erections? Many people will tell you that testosterone blockers keep you from getting erections, but it's largely psychological and everybody reacts differently. There are TS girls who get no erections who aren't on any hormones or t-blockers yet. There are TS girls on huge doses of t-blockers who still get erections. There are TS girls who have had orchiectomies and take estrogen and still get erections. If you really want to talk about erections PM me, but I'm going to stop for now.Anyway, all hormones are like that -- especially progesterone. Some people never get any feminine curves. Some get them from estrogen, some don't. Some get them when they add progesterone. But the bottom line is nobody can tell you what amount of which drugs (if any) will make you grow breasts, will atrophy your testicles, will make you unable to sustain an erection, will put you in a better mood, will put you in a worse mood, will give you a pulmonary embolism, etc... Well, actually, a doctor can run tests to tell you if you're at much risk for blood clots...
Estrogen can feminize you without taking t-blockers. That's why steroid abusers can get gynecomastia. Some of your T naturally converts to E, and if you have twice the normal male amount of T you'll have twice the E, too. Many people talk about how testosterone blocks estrogen receptors or destroys estrogen but this is at least to some degree unfounded.
As someone who used to do 300 lb reps on the bench (because that was all the weight that came with the set), though, I will tell you that you'll need all the help you can get as far as that linebacker look, and testosterone blockers are a good place to start. They make me feel kinda lethargic, though, so I don't take as much as I should.
If you're not taking a high dose of a testosterone blocker you do need to at least take a DHT blocker. About 1/3 of your testosterone converts to DHT, and DHT is what makes you bald, what increases your body hair, what causes an enlarged prostate. Really, DHT causes most of the bad things. If you block DHT, though, you actually increase free testosterone, so again you'll have that linebacker problem to some degree. But if you're 23 and have good hair you should get on a DHT blocker (like Propecia) regardless.
I don't know. This is probably just an argument of semantics. But I certainly consider it more of a spectrum over which nobody is really 100% male or female mentally. I would greatly prefer to have been born a girl. I would prefer to be called "she." I do acknowledge that I have several masculine traits, though, and there are a few which I don't even resent.
Well, we all feel like sideshow attractions sometimes. That's what the therapy's for.
I know a TS woman who is with an F2M guy. Both of them have been on HRT for many years, but neither have had SRS. Both function normally, and the girl takes ... well ... we're not supposed to discuss dosages, but she takes a very high (yet fairly typical) amount of Spiro and a fairly high amount of oral estradiol. But maybe she just isn't receptive to the hormones, because she desperately needed (and got) implants. Again, everybody is different. There are people who only fooled around with estrogen for a little bit and permanently lost function.
You'll be fine. You don't need to apologize so much. And don't worry so much about 10 years from now. But get on a DHT blocker so you can see if any of that back hair goes away. And start saving up for that laser hair removal because you'll definitely need it on your face and chest. You don't really want to start growing boobs while you're still shaving your cleavage, do you? Trust me it's not pretty.
...can you make me a pink tanto???
I'm self-employed (just not selling any knives yet), so I don't have to worry about losing my job.
Gads, and I could find an endless list of webpages where everything was as "promised" (promised by who exactly?) and, even more significantly, the transsexual was given the body they've been wanting all their lives. No surgical procedure always turns out perfectly, but I would hazard to guess the success ratio of SRS is at least as good as any other major surgery.
