I'm a 50 year old mess. I've been "dressiing" since a teenager. Done absolutely nothing about it except hide it. Lots of purging, lots of denial, lots of shame. I can't tell my family it's too late. I've tried to be "normal" and it isn't working. I want to be myself, whatever that is, and can't seem to do it. It's not about being gay or straight.
It's difficult to explain how I feel. I'm torn between wanting to live an honest life without hurting my family. Or friends for that matter. Friends are easier to acquire but family is difficult. I'm not sure if any of my statements are making any sense but it is how I feel, at least at this moment.
I guess what I want and desire is acceptance or understanding. I guess I'm asking for help or understanding. Either is acceptable.