Every time I even think about work, I get totally depressed, and it has nothing to do w/ the usual mainstream discontent so many people feel about their jobs. There is NO WAY I feel that I could transition where I currently work. SO, I either keep the job, and feel absolutely miserable b/c I am not able to be ME, or I quit and throw myself out there into the precarious job search situation that all ts girls find themselves in these days. Let's face it, right? It's difficult enough to find a decent position anywhere these days. Well, it's even more unlikely for a tgirl like me.
BUT, there is still the fact that it's time for Chrissy to come out. I can't keep doing this, living this life like an imposter and a fake. It's killing my spirit more and more every day. My therapist feels that I should stay with it another year since I'm "early" in my transition, but she's thinking practically and I'm thinking emotionally. Sometimes practicality just DOES NOT matter.
I am just feeling very desperate about it, yet, money and security DO matter. Do any of you girls who are transitioning feel as trapped as I do? What have you done about it? I want so badly to move on, but I'm afraid to do so. Thoughts?
AAAAAUUUUGGGGGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
Chrissy