That pretty much sums up how i've been feeling lately too Jan
Every time i reach a point where i feel i can accept who i am, it seems to start edging further, it feels like the "femme" side is trying to take over.
I've tried ignoring my feelings and not dressing, hoping that i can hold myself to the point i'd already reached, but then when i give in and dress again i feel the need to go further than i did before.
Now thoughts of transistioning or partial transistioning are starting to creep in, causing even more confusion to me.
I'm wondering now, where does this all end?