She found out about my CD and can not forgive me for the selfishness that i imposed on her, and that as we grew up i was her rock and her rock didnt apear in a dress. She wrote a letter of discuss and was a last time she spoke with me.
Now five years later as my son heads back for his second tour of duty in iraq,
he was on leave and stoped by her house, and questioned why we never talk about each other or vist, and he racalled another time where we there for each other, so she cryed and could tell him, so he asked me and i told him that the answer right now would only cloud your judgement and in a combat sisuation you need to focus on your mission.
But i will resolve the issue and things will be like they were befor when you return home.
The first time i have ever had to lie to him how selfish is that of me, once again she proves her point.
So i went to her house to say hello and see if there has been a change in her impression of me. And she said no that she could never accept it or share the concept on any leval.
And asked me to leave and said telling my boy would only hurt him as much as i hurt her.
I never meant to bring her into Nadeens life, and it was a mistake on my part and by mistake she found out and i only question if i was forthright would the outcome be differnt.
It has now become a issue with my wife since my son left and he asked her and she said she failed to correct a charector defect in me 24 years ago but that would not be the case anymore when he come home.
So she demanded that every thing of Nadeen existance disapper from the residence or live that way of life somewhere else.
How it sucks to be me right now but i come back to this forum tonight cause it not a way of life its just me.
I have found the comfort of this forum and to be able to share and i dont know what tomorow will bring but in the interm i would like to say thanks to every one here best wishes to all. Love Nadeen