Kathy, accept my sincere sympathy having lost my wife this year also. I was lucky that my wife accepted me no matter what and I too increased dressing the last six months of her life.
You never get over the loss but hopefully you will feel better soon. One thing that may help is for you not to beat yourself up over the dressing part. If it helps there is no reason to stop. Worrying about what will happen if you are discovered in the future is putting undue stress on your health. As they say 100 years from now will anyone care or remember. Ideally you will tell your children so that they can be prepared AND you can relax and enjoy what makes you happiest in this hard time.
I found several good friends here even if I have never met the, personally. They have been here for me and their friendship and caring have helped. Please let us do the same for you. Stay with us.
