Hi everyone,
Lately I have stepped up my research on HRT and have been really trying to figure out if HRT is right for me or not.
I feel weird because of my situation, and am stuck it seems as how to read myself. I currently CD when I can, which isn't often, as I'm currently at home living with parents now. I've never had the chance to have a Real Life Experience of significant length. All I know is I've been CD"ing since elementary school age and the degree of dressing has increased every since. Currenly I'm getting laser hair removal done on my face and I'm growing out my hair to a longer length. I'm also seeing a psychotherapist.
On one hand I wonder if HRT is right for me since I've been CD'ing for so long, and have come this far.
On the other hand I feel I may very well be doing something very foolish and not right for me, yet when I imagine my life in the future without HRT and just being a CD, I feel sad, like I'm missing out on something, there's a feeling of emptiness I guess you can say.
I feel that my life lacks a solid direction. I'm almost done with college and I still have no idea what my career will exactly be like yet. I feel different and isolated from people, and from that I often figure "maybe things are meant for me to do things like HRT?". Since I lack the Real Life Experience as Shayna, my therapist said that I'm "putting the cart before the horse", which makes sense. Yet I'm still doing all this research on HRT.
I've done research on HRT and know that it's basically taking a chance. Many aspects of HRT have not been studied in regards to trans-people. I'm aware of the health risks, but would still be willing to do HRT. I don't smoke at all and seldom drink, and I know that would help my situation greatly in making it easier in regards to HRT.
Just for the record if I ever do HRT it will be with a doctor and his/her supervision.
Sorry for the long post, but I was curious if anyone else here ever found themselves in this situation?