Last night I was talking to my wife/friend K. We were chatting and I was telling about her about my adventures on the town the night before (see Power post). I was excited. I was wearing a short pink shirt and green cutie top that she had bought me. Sometimes I get really excited and emotional when I am Jodi. So I was sitting beside her and she was listening and watching me. I am shy sometimes. At this moment I really likfd her a lot. We play friends when I am dressed, because I am shy and flirty mostly. I asked her a question. I said, "Can I ask you a question, K?" She sadi, Sure, Jodi go ahead?" I then said, "No, I am sorry." She replied, "No, Jodi go ahead." I then asked, "Can I kissed you?" She looked at me and said, "Do you want too now?" I then turned away and said," No, I am sorry. We are friends and friend should'nt kiss. It is not right. Two women shouldn't do that." She said, "Jodi, perhaps you are not ready yet. Let me know when you are ready." I said ,"Yes you are right thanks K. You are my best friend. I am sorry I am just really young at this and I need your guidance, K" She said, "I know."Let's go downstairs and watch a movie." She left, I got undressed and went down stairs and we talked a lot. This event seemed significant to me in a great way. You see I am really two people - emotional -sensitive and strong faced - rational. Female and male. I cut my emotional self off I long time ago and I did it deliberately. These aspects of self need to exist in me.
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JodiArtemis