I posted on another thread that my "resolution" was to go out dressed. Well tonight I kind of did. While Im writing this I still have my make up, wig, jewelery and even the French Manicure acrylic nails on. Need less to say I got all dolled up and was ready to go to the Christmas eve party at a local LGBT bar called Mad Myrna's. It took about 2 hours to get ready making sure I got my look right. Angel fire is right Eye make up is an art, liquid eye liner is one of the most difficult things ever! Anywho. So i worked up the courage. got in the car and drove over there. I circled the block about 6 times and finally pulled into the parking lot in back. After 5 minutes I finally grabbed my purse got out and lit up a ciggy. I walked around to the front and passed a few guys on my way and that made me nervous but I made it to the door. Thats when I saw "This door is locked at 8PM Please use the back entrance. So, I made my way to the back with my heels sinking in the snow and got back in my car. I had to rebuild my confidence. about another few rounds of driving around (some people have talked about this being a thrill. Eh. I was just driving, nothing special) So I found myself in the parking lot again, not really knowing where this door was. I spent about 15 minuets in my car stressing myself out. After seeing where people were coming in and out I worked myself up again and got back out. I walked towards the door and lit another smoke to calm my nerves. I was brave. I clutched my purse and walked in. I looked around and saw nothing but men in a well lit bar. No other T girls, nothin else. I was hopping there would be one or two gurls there. There is a drag show there every Friday so I though the odds would be good that there would be another gurl there but no luck. So that was the last shot to my confidence. After that I want home a little disappointed with myself for not even having a drink. but I did make it though the door so thats a step in the right direction.