Hi Girls,
I was chatting with my neighbour a few weeks ago, saying that sometimes I still don't feel 100% confident when out and about, although it doesn't happen very often now and it's getting less frequent. I passed the comment that it sometimes seems like when I'm not feeling 100% confident is when people pick up on my vibes and that's when they notice.
She said that, yes, people will pick up on that. So I gave it some thought and since then on the occasions when I've been feeling a bit less than 100% I have told myself that I am a woman, as this woman or that woman is and that has helped me loads with my own confidence.
I have also noticed in the same period that nobody has appeared to pick up on me, but just walked past and carried on with what they are doing.
Even better than that, I was chatting with a woman last weekend - the manageress of a shop I was delivering to - and she was discussing with me about how much better women truck drivers are than men - doing much less damage by hitting things.
Also a couple of days ago I went to look at a new house and the landlady was accepting me as a woman. This was confirmed when I said about where my children lived and she passed the comment 'they live with their dad then'.
I've come to the conclusion that on the occasions I lack confidence in myself, it is a self-fullfilling proficy, and I'm not just another person in the street - I am different and stand out like a sore thumb.
Anne