Lately I've been feeling super sad and super lonely.
I have like zero friends pretty much. Zero transmen to talk to either.
I have my fiancee but I would really like my own guy friends. Call up and hang out or something. But its hard with her too. Cuz if i had friends then she'd be alone too. She recently started getting closer to my old high school friend but they arent quite hang out friends yet. And i had been hoping to be bff's with her boyfriend but they broke up a while ago.
I have the forum here. Duh. But i dont even have good friends here either. Its more of an open mike shout your reply kinda thing and i'm grateful for that cuz without this place i'd be sh*t!
I've been thinking about going to the ftm alliance meetings but idk i'm just scared. Theyre probably older anyway. Also my doctor changed from her place to the gay and lesbian center downtown.
Since i brought that up i'll kill two birds with one stone; i'm terrified of going to the gay and lesbian center. I'm afraid of being blown up, or kidnapped, or shot.. I have this fear of being shot its so hardcore. I hate going shopping with my mom at night cuz if i lose her i literally turn the corner and see her shot dead, or held hostage in my head. I am just so terrified of violence.
All i really want is a friend. I have asperger's so making friends isnt on my specialty list so since i was diagnosed i've been thinking that maybe its me.
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