Hi Kelly...nahhh that's not what i'm saying at all...
your experience is so fundamentally and totally different than mine that i really get alot from perspective...but my thought had zero to do with what a young beautiful woman can do with her life
when i say "fantastical" i'm talking about exaggerated and silly things that a 50 year old bald person is saying about how she plans to transition..things that have no basis in reality...things that she has done NOTHING about...things she has not thought through and then she says that she wants to look at my vagina after my surgery!!! ummmm....
i dont want to be mean, but i didnt like that at all...
so when i saw kate's post, it reminded me of her, and some other people in my life right now...
i doubt very much that your number one goal is to walk down a garden lane in killer heels...and don't forget, BOTH OF US would love walking through a wonderful garden in our nicest dress....and i know i've done it!!!! but your (and mine) hopes and dreams are much more exciting and fulfilling than that, aren't they??
every day that i take my exercise walk, and i see another woman walking the other way, and she makes eye contact with me and smiles... i just sigh...i am so happy and peaceful at that moment...thats my dream, that's all it is...it has nothing to do with high heels (altho i love them and i enjoy wearing cute heels)
i am living my dream...when i bend down a pet a little puppy and her owner says awww fluffy, do you like her?? i pinch myself...
now i am moving on to making a living, and moving on to socialize with more nontrans people... i view this as adventure just like you described...and altho i'm off to a slow start, i'm plugging along, and i am realizing that i consistently pass, and i've even had the opportunity to talk to people after they "found out" (too many people in my field know me), they've told me that it never entered their mind that i might be trans....i can flirt with the home depot saleman...etcetc...its wonderful...as you can tell i can't stop blabbing about it!!
but i can also describe it as NORMAL, nothing on my mind except the day(s) ahead....to me normal is sooooo much better than where i was before...that's what is the best part for me...
feeling this way every day has changed my life, and i want to grab some girls i know by the throat and tell them what is possible
and i want to tell folks that i know are out there, and they continue to live in the fantasy world, that's fine, but if you are serious about fulfilling your real dream, then get real (for want of a better word)... there is nothing at all wrong with fantasy...but if you are seriously ts oriented, and you are sitting there on the brink, wondering what you are and what you can do about it, the reality is actually better than the fantasy....forget the clothes, forget the makeup...think ahead, plan the next 5 years, save money, get electrolysis, get family onboard, etcetc...it can be worth it.
so thanks for asking me the question that i used as excuse to send a love letter to the group!!