I am new to this forum, and I hope I am posting is the right area. :-)
I have been cross-dressing off and on since I was about 9 years old. My story is a pretty typical one of sneaking in my moms closet for her clothes and such. Over the years I have bought my own, i've purged my collections and sworn I would never buy more, I always seen to be drawn to dressing up though. I don't know why, and am not even going to pretend to understand why I am this way, I am not passable in the least.
Currently I am married and my wife is fully aware that I crossdress but only has minor issues with it. she doesn't like to see me dressed, but we have been intimate while I have had (on of my own) silk nightgowns on.
My wife is out of town and I recently went out on a errand run dressed. It was only to the post office and gas station and the bank, but it was a significant leap for me cause I had never went that far before "en femme" I felt great though and really want to do it again, as this was a HUGE self esteem booster for me.
However while I was out I began thinking of many things that I never really though of before, due to the fact that I never had the nerve to go out dressed. before this time it was absolutly out of the question for me. I don't know why I chose now to do it, but I am glad I did.
So if any of you ladies can help answer some of these question I would be grateful. again I know that some of this has already been posted (many) times before and I have read many many threads about this stuff, but I never seem to get the answer I want or need to hear. I also quite frankly have never been an active part of a forum before, so I would also like to get some experiance posting a bit if you don't mind :-)
So here goes...
1. Every time I go en femme I do a nice conservative makup of my face. I even have beard cover from Suddenly femme, however I ALWAYS have some kind of beard shadow not matter how hard I try. I shave up, down sideways etc... and put on my concealer and it always shows through. also if I put on to much I look very fake and wierd like the crossdressing guy from boondock saints. lol. I see so many pretty girls on here, please Whats you secret!?
2. I have only bee out once so far an have not had to deceide yet, but can I please get a difinitive answer on what bathroom I should go in? I am not passable see my photo, but would feel wierd going in the mens restroom.
3.I really admire women and look very closely at what the are wearing and try to mimic that. I don't want to appear to be a "hooker" or "****", what the question is really.... Am I doing ok in the photo I posted?
3. I am really interested in taking hormones, I know what the results can be and I also know what the side effects are. my question is, would my wife be able to tell I was taking them if I didn't tell her (which I probably would) and has anyone taken them and really regretted it? I am mainly looking for the effects of thinner body hair and maybe a little breast tissue, but I really dont want to loose my sex drive, and finally do the once you can get online without a prescription really work?
4. last question for now and this is my biggest concern! How do you girls change you voice? I have looked at a number of threads and watched a number of videos, I have practiced over and over but cannnot seem to ever make a convincing female sound. Am I DOOMED to a deep male voice or am I just not getting it. I really want to continue dressing en femme and going out but my biggest concern is having to say something to someone? please help.
5. oh, and also (this is the real last question) what about when you have to show you id (drivers license) am I able to get one as a girl,? is that even legal, I am in california BTW.
Again, this is my frist post an d I am sorry if it is long or in the wrong place. I do really respect you girls for being you, and really want to now become an active member of a forum like this to learn and share my experiences.
Thank you and bless you all!
Dahlia