When I was a kid and still trying to figure out just who and what I was I tried a couple of times to pursue various "macho" activities. I was a failure at most ball games, couldn't fight my way out of a wet paper bag and wasn't much of a vandal or a thief either. I was afraid of girls and spent most of my time alone or with a small group of firends.
It wasn't that the "Macho" world offended or repulsed me, I just was a failure there. Feminine stuff was forbidden so I was kind of left trying to make my way through the world without latching on to a normal gender role. I know there are many examples of crossdressers who jumped with both feet into the dangerous, heavy testosterone world of sports, hunting, speed, the military and the like. My question then; If you didn't/couldn't get in to the macho part of the world, where did you go?