I must commend you ladies for actually gathering the confidence to go out and buy clothes or shoes and deal with the looks or the comments from other people. I certainly have not been able to gather that type of confidence. I did once go to the shopping store to buy pantyhose and as the result I got strange looks, and the cashier there stated I was 'looking' obvious as a crossdresser, and she laughed with her friend. There was also one older guy that gave me the worst looks.... and to make it even worse I found out that I had purcahsed knee pantyhose....
Anyway that was over 2 years ago and I have never gone to that same grocery store. I have been trying to prepare myself to go out and buy something for myself again. I alway prepare myself for the possibility of the me arriving and the shop is virutally empty and the cashier looks ok and tolerable but thus far I have not been able to go further and buy myself a skirt, or a pair of pantyhose or shoes..... Lately I have looked towards lower cheaper chinese 'goods' stores. The reason why is because most of these stores are unrecognizable in comparison to other stores, for the most part at times of the day these stores are virtually empty and the cashiers do not really speak much english and I doubt they recognize.
I managed to buy a pair of thigh high black socks from one of these stores but told the woman that it was for 'soccer', this was at night close to closing time and nobody was around. She was quiet helpful and insisted the socks were good quality. They were evidently female socks but I donno... she asked whether they were for me again.... and I told her again they were for soccer.... so I donno whether she suspects I am a crossdresser. The next time I went into that same store she was there with her daughter and she said something in Korean to her daughter as I walked in. I suspect she told her daughter that I bought those thigh high evidently female black socks.... maybe she caught me trying to browse to the womens clothing the other day as well....
Anyway... I am trying this other asian 'goods store' where they sell shoes, dresses and what not. They are at an edge of a busy road but its at that point where theres a 'dead end' for pedestrians to walk... if anybody can understand... so it is hidden... and I am trying to wait for a perfect day for my shopping.... where its raining, its in the morning to the point where the shop is virtually empty.... so yea I have the goal to get some black heels, a plaid skirt and other stuff..
I know I know... I could order some ebay stuff to my house, but then again I am still living with the folks (hopefully moving out next year, finishing studies this year) and I do NOT want to risk it. I mean even if I got something delivered it would be in a recognizable package.... and with work and studies and all I would not be able to moniter the package before the folks get home.
Urgh this is frustrating.... I must apologize for rambling but this is the first place I could let 'Allexas' out of me to run freely... I really have not given her enough attention..... she deserves it.... Im hoping to get my own place to the point where I could roam free as Allexas....
Does anybody understand what I am going through?