Hi Jinkzd
I am a self employed heavy truck and equipment mechanic , I weld , fabricate , paint and do installations on site. I don't own a car , only trucks , six of them to be exact , I ride a Harley in my spare time and I cross-dress while doing all of it , mostly under-dressed but yes I have a feminine side.
I no longer struggle with those feelings now that I have accepted myself and my cross-dressing as a positive part of who I am as a person.
I am happy and comfortable with who I am and fell lucky that I am a little bit different and have come to terms with it.
I hope that you are able to overcome your fears and conflicts and understand that it is OK to just be yourself !
Tomara