For years before I got divorced, I thought that I could function as an "Admirer" with other Crossdressers, and had myself convinced I was not interested in men when I was in drab myself. After four years of being on my own, without the need to hide my preferences from other family members, I am now admitting to myself that my true nature is to be the female partner irrespective of the clothes I'm wearing. I have found that I enjoy the physical act of sex as much whether I begin the encounter in men's or women's clothing. But, having said that I can also say that the emotional satisfaction is much more intense when I'm cross-dressed, and that I am much more concerned and appreciative of foreplay, kissing, massaging, and conversational intimacy when I'm interacting through my feminine side.
