[SIZE="2"]I don’t, really, but now and then it’s fun to try. I’ve been interrogated a few times in my life, always by someone with no point of reference in regards to crossdressing. To tell the truth, I enjoy playing with people's heads! There are so many questions, and these are some of my answers:
Why on Earth are you wearing THAT? What are you DOING?
I’m a crossdresser – have you ever seen one before? I prefer to wear this, mainly because I can, and I want to – we can go into a discussion about tactile sensibilities, but I can tell that would be a complete waste of time, judging by your bemused, judgemental look. It’s pointless to describe the pleasures I feel to someone who HASN’T had the pleasure. The feel of delicate fabric, the lovely smoothness of nylons over shaved legs, the hug of snug undergarments, the swing of a skirt (not to mention the feeling of air swirling around your legs), the dangling earrings gently banging against your neck, the smudge of lipstick on a teacup, the hair, the fragrance – shall I go on?
Are you some kind of pervert?
What is your definition of a pervert? Someone who doesn’t do what other people do, by choice, or someone who is out in left field in terms of morality? Again, a definition is required, since everyone has a different idea about perversion. I wasn’t bothering you before you found out I was a crossdresser, so I’m assuming you feel threatened by my alternative choices, no doubt originating from the same deep well of contempt you feel for all people who go against the grain of normalcy in some way. Actually, I don’t mind being called a pervert – I wear my perversions to let others know I’m different. I know one thing -- I would hate to be called “normal,” or, even worse, a conformist…
Are you gay?
Actually, I was doing just fine until you came along – oh, you mean am I a homosexual? I’m guessing you have something against homosexuals, you know, in the form of some prejudice that you picked up and embellished? Perhaps you’re trying to extinguish some desire by projecting your anger and frustration onto me instead? There are no easy answers, my dear, and I don’t feel motivated to discuss a private subject with someone who is insensitive, uncaring, or unsympathetic. In your case I’m making a blanket assessment, a generalization, something you can no doubt relate to. Just because I’m a crossdresser, it doesn’t automatically follow that I’m homosexual – that is largely a historical aspect to my chosen lifestyle that comes in the form of prejudicial baggage, even though I sometimes feel I'm on a one-person crusade to re-introduce effeminacy into the male persona. Nowadays the reality is more complex than you can fathom. Let’s just say I’m somewhere in the ballpark of human sexuality, but I’m not a paying customer. There’s not a big menu here on Earth, and you are allowed to experiment from time to time. Are you afraid of me?
Why weren’t you properly disciplined when you were growing up?
If you mean I wasn’t taken aside to have my mind scooped out, then replaced with the same generic brain matter all other non-alternative people carry around, well, you would be correct. I was very lucky. Rather than willingly throw away my precious individuality to meet some standard put forth by my peers, then get deposited in a pre-determined hole somewhere in the corporate landscape, I decided to wander around through life instead. It’s a beautiful view from where I’m standing – wish you were here. Actually, disregard that last remark. A funny thing happened on the way to the edge – I didn’t develop the hatreds others seem to enjoy wallowing in. Not to worry, though -- I’m an All-American girl/boy. Actually, I’m an All-World girl/boy, since crossdressing is universal…
Who put you up to this? Who corrupted you?
I wasn’t corrupted; I was enlightened through my perceptions at an early age. I found out everything on my own, so I harbor no guilt or shame because of my actions – when there’s nobody around to tell you something is “wrong,” you’re free to explore each new sensation as it comes along, and decide if it’s right (or not), based on your own judgement. It’s all about feelings, in my case, and this alternative gender awareness developed separately from other, more sexual explorations that are usually linked to crossdressing by proxy (or convenience)…
What do you have to say for yourself?
I’m saying it, but if you weren’t questioning me I wouldn’t say a thing. I’m being confronted by a person who has a very narrow, polarized view of humanity, reinforced by what is shown on TV, and then further reinforced by societal pressures thrust upon you each and every day. I feel sorry for you, since you’re on a treadmill (of your own making) in a very small room, facing a blank wall, trying to get ahead by not looking too far in any direction. Aren’t those blinders painful?
Do they have a name for what’s wrong with you?
From my perspective, nothing is wrong with me. Am I hurting you? Then stop hurting me with over-used words like “wrong,” used to describe YOUR view of how I must be. How arrogant, and how dare you assume that I have some problem that requires correcting? I wouldn’t say such a thing to you, out of courtesy, something I learned by following this other, gentler path. I didn’t need any help to squeegee my "third eye" clean, either – all I had to do was meet my true self and incorporate...
Do you wish to become a woman?
Not in my case – I am happy to have this level of gender integration, something I cultivate each and every day, something I cannot live without. For me, crossdressing is not a hobby, not an activity, not a compulsion, nor is it something to escape to. There’s not a woman trapped inside of me trying to get out, either -- She’s not inside me, she’s beside me, and I like the company. After all, it’s only “we,” you know. Needless to say, it’s very hard to explain if you don't know yourself...
I’ve been asked all of these questions, in regards to crossdressing, at one time or another, during my somewhat brief life. I combined several “interviews” into one thread for convenience…
Tell me – do you feel you have to explain yourself? [/SIZE]