i know that there are many of us that wish we could have a female body, but for some of us transitioning isnt an option right now,
now i dont get a chance to dress like i want to cause i work third shift and get out tired and by the time i get up my kids are home, and when they go to bed im going to work, so my time to dress is while i sleep. until this year i had not even had any sleep ware to do this with.
well now its got me wondering about my whole life and am i really just a cross dresser or and i a transgender person who hasnt transitioned yet, why you may ask, well hears the deal: when im dressed i feel like a women in almost every way , although im not atracted to men even while dressed. since ive been sleeping while dressed i realized something , when i wake up the first thing that comes to my face is a smile, and the feelings of joy to be waking up and seeing my body feminized. now i know this probably sounds weird but i have been praying to make me into a girl since i was like six , i know in my heart if i did transition it would be the best thing i would ever do and i wouldnt regret the changing part but for the hurt it would cause my family and loss of friends who just wouldnt understand i dont know if i could ever deal with that
do any of u wake up with these feeling and if so how do u deal with have to get up and get all dressed as a man
some days its just easier to do the man thing cause iv done it my whole life but then there are days i feel like why cant i bring myself to just go and tell every one im going to go and transition so i can dress an be happy