Here I am, late to the party as usual.
Here is my take on girls like us. It is true that we all have an image of what or who we think we will become after transition. Some do become beautiful sexy girls with little surgery and it is hard to tell there was any maleness in their past. That is just good genes. Some never really do become very feminine looking even with the surgeries. Then there are those of us that become middle of the road everyday girls. Beauty is not everything. I am sure you have heard the saying, “ Beauty is skin deep”. Every woman is beautiful, some show it with their faces, others show it with their hearts.
For us, becoming a girl is 90% mental and 10% physical. If you are not mentally prepared for transition you are not going to be satisfied with the outcome. You will be just as unhappy then as you are now if not worse. From the start you must be 100% committed to accept the changes in your body, mind and soul and realize the limitations of transition. You must be prepared to accept the “final” results whatever they may be.
Alexia, from your picture you are a good looking woman. From your text, you are a beautiful woman. Be paient, it doesn’t happen over night.