I have a few questions, and it involves everyone. FTM, MTF, CD'rs
Before you think "oh god not again" when you start reading, I PROMISE you that it's not just "what made you want to be male/female".
OK here we go ^^
First, the what made you want to be" question is a little bit useless for everyone, since everyone on both sides always have the same answer of "I didn't choose, it's how I was born" So I don't see anything to be learned from another with that. Even the comments weren't very fulfilling, because lets face it, how much do we really have to say about something so seemingly obvious in a forum like this.
So, I wanted to try to up it for everyone, something we could learn from each of us, and perhaps have more understandings of things.
The way I see it, my question is not "what made you decide?", but what was that defining moment in your life that the realization came to you of this was who you truly were? and I already know the "I wanted barbies/gi joes. I wore/like mens/womens clothes, when I was young I was trying to potty the "wrong" way" etc. Yeah, we got that-the basics.
What I'm really interested in, is the moment of your mature mental stage, when you were learning of things of this nature, made you realize it was who you truly were, and decide to go the final step into acceptance of yourself. We all know of the motions we had done/still doing were specific to a particular gender, but what were your emotions when doing this? and I'm not talking about how you were depressed you weren't them blah blah.
So, when did that divine moment of awakening happen? When curling your hair, thoughts that suddenly came you realized wasn't just you being a CD'er. Were you lying in bed at night, mind just wandering on random things that suddenly led you to that area of thought and analyzing, or maybe having conversation with a friend and something that you/they said suddenly affected you in a way it shouldn't have.
What made you suddenly see that you were more than just a cross dresser. A drag queen/king. A butch. A tomboy. A man in touch with his feminine side. A woman who just didn't have the typical "girly" qualities and skirts and lipstick just weren't her thing.
The mind blowing time of "After these things happened, I now realize I'm none of these...I'm transgender...wow"
And for the CD'rs, what made you come to the conclusion that you were just a cross dresser and not transgender. (I've always been really curious there) :3
I just think it's fascinating to learn the different aspects of different people, and how there are so many ways that led us to the same destination.