I agree about me not knowing much about memory research. BUT, PLEASE STOP ASSUMING EVERYONES MEMORY IS AS BAD AS YOURS, OR THAT OUR MEMORIES ARE BAD AT ALL. It cant be healthy for you to feel so much pain and anguish about all of your memories. Have you considered therapy to help sort your memories and dreams from each other? I do not mean to be mean. I just get a feeling that you don't like what you remember of your life and if (IF) that is true, I'm sorry but you may not be able to sort out the past if you try it without help. If I am off base, I apologize. It is just that I have a sense that you are uncomfortable with yourself and I know that isn't good..... For you or anyone around you..