I feel I am probably single because I crossdress and generally have exotic sexual tastes.

I've not given up. I'm not miserable about it. I'm not that hung up about it, well no more than you might expect But it is an issue especially about relationships.

I now feel judged about not being settled/married etc.

It must be confusing for people as I don't appear hung up about sexuality so I can't be repressed about being gay. Maybe they suspect all manner of things.

I am tempted to let people know, the older I get the less I care. Though it could be awkward. I find some people can be seemingly understanding then shy away.

Though I do know other middle aged single people. They seem vanilla enough and I wonder what their problem is.

Anyone else in a similar situation?