I gave up trying to stop doing it.. its a cycle of throwing away items and trying to force myself to do more dangerous macho things.. I've came to realise that I can still do the things I like and be myself too. Its in our makeup some of us I think where meant to be female yet got the wrong end of the stick so to speak. So its either live in a vicious cycle or accept who you are inside. I give props to those that can stop for good but I myself always go back to it and its worse the longer I hold off. :|