Ok, so I moved in with my friend i met on the net in a video game like a a few years ago.
Well as it goes, it was a bit awkward at first but then we kinda fell in to the whole friends thing.
But neither of us can forget the things that we said to each other over MSN and in the MMORPG we used to play. I mean i guess its pretty much a story book sorta Internet relationship that sorta ended up working out.
But now that were together, in the same room...
Its driving me crazy.
I didnt think it was gonna be this bad.
No nothings wrong with him or me, We are great friends.
But oh my god, I never wanted to have sex with someone so bad in my life.
It's driving up a wall.
I mean, the guy pratically rescued me from a hell I had been living in for years.
I mean, can i say i love him? Im not sure but he's a realyl good guy, and im sure as hell he likes me as well.
Sorry if this is hard to understand I have ****in clue how to deal with this.
I mean, I had never wished i had been a girl so bad in my life, well, i mean in a way that its depressing but its a will to live thing...
Its making me really depressed but i dont feel suicidal like usual.
I mean if i WAS a girl im pretty sure we wouldnt be able to leave each other alone.
I mean... We click... We have pretty much the same intrests, and he's 100% Ok with me being the way I am.
I just, its driving me ****in crazy that I cant be "his girl."