Gosh, so many great and well thought out answers. Thank you everyone so much. This is truly a great forum!
I was thinking today..."Just accept it...it's who you are". That basically sums up the majority of what most said here. So I started thinking a lot about that. Does it mean I am a part time cross dresser? What does that mean?
I like to wear woman's clothes because it feels good to look like a woman. When I do cd and look down at myself, I see a woman. Yes, I wish I was a woman and could be one. I guess that makes me a little transgender...but at 28 I think it's too late to make a change that would make me completely passable. Aside from that I'd loose my gf, whom I want to marry, and most of my family. That'd devastate me!
So I'm stuck cd'ing. I sometimes wonder if it's nothing more than a fetish. But when I do CD, just like others here say, it makes me feel peaceful and relaxed. I look forward to it at the end of the day. I get to shrug off my heavy, construction worker(just imagine if the macho guys at work knew...ha!), male body and put on my frail and gentle feminine form. It's then when I really feel relaxed.
So that is who I am... a dude that likes to pretend to be a lady by wearing their clothes because he could never truly be a woman. Better than nothing I guess. I suppose you all are right. I will always feel like this, I need to accept it, move on, enjoy life and find some cd friends and an most importantly an outlet that allows me to be girly in public.
Perhaps it's time I get a good wig, makeup and some fashionable clothes and go to a bar. I hear T-girl Tuesdays at Hamburger Mary's is pretty good.
Katrina,
You will figure out what works best for you , in my case I perfer more freedom but I place family value a head ,, This also keeps me in check ,it tames the never satisfied beast ...But more than any of that..It's who I really am and thats hard to change, I know I do not want to live 24/7 as a women ,that would become boring, dressing for me above all is an escape..
It's taken me a long time to accept it ( not 100%) adjust my life to fit it in and become a better person by doing so.. Don't get me wrong I still have issue about the urges but I keep myself at a happy medium..
I do not!! Claim to be an expert on any topic, when I post a new thread or reply on any thread my imput is strickly that of a crossdresser. Not to offend Gay people , Transexuals or any other life style, I am only commenting on one of my own.