Sugarmomma and i are coming up on our 10th wedding anniversary. We have been saving our change in jars for years, so we could finally go on a "honeymoon".
This year is the year, in fact his summer.
She has been looking at cabins in the smokey mtns and i have to say some of them are so surreal and beautiful. We are so excited about it.
As we have progressed as a couple and crossdressing has become accepted by us both. I had been thinking of actually having a outing with her but only mentioned it a few months back. This week, while web surfing, she just out of the blue says "look at this restaurant it would be cool to go on a girl date there". I said "Cool, it does look super nice there" She asks after reading into my response "Did you still want to go on a girl date?" Being honest i said "Yes, but im a total chicken. (pointing at some clothing i was browsing at) Like...any of these dresses... i love them but im going to look like a man in a dress." She says (while laughing) "Baby im not going out with a hairy man in a dress....your gonna have to shave,if you your gonna be my "girlfriend"....The while she is still giggleing she says "My inner lesi doesnt like hairy women"...
It was a really lighthearted conversation, it felt good to be asked about what i wanted...it felt great to share my fears about it....it felt spectacular to know an outing had been on her mind as well.
It will be the first time i have been out of the house openly crossdressed in more than 9 years.....
Great right.....
Sigh im kinda freaking out about the shaving.....both genders are really at war with this within my head
Guy side says "Dude, your really gonna shave the man fuzz?"
Girl side says "Chica, you need to raze the rainforest"
Both however agree that i will not be a hairy man in a dress
I guess my main reservation about it is that i am so girly in drab, being hairy is an affirmation to my man ego, even though the Missdonni side is jumping up and down giggling like a schoolgirl at the very thought of not being hairy
My second is "What if i like it, and dont want to go back to being a hairball"
Third "Even though shes says she is fine with me shaving, she does say she likes my man fur too...Would it in long term be a big deal to her?
Friends am i just freaking out over nothing.....has anyone else gone thru this?, What helped?
-Donni-