I never wanted it to end. It was simply the BEST time Amanda has had ever! It was just her against the real world. I was ready. I got a hotel, got ready and hit the stores. That first step into Old Navy was so incredible. No one thought anything. I passed men, women, and teenage girls (the hardest ones to pass to apparently). I felt so awesome and relaxed. I kind of just smirked and said to myself, "Hell, this is so easy" I was just another semi attractive girl in the world doing my thing. I got so confident that I went straight to the Beast. The Mall. I had been to this Mall 10 years ago but it was not to this level and that was ages ago. I thought it was poetic to return. As I walked through the mall I passed many, many people. I was in Macys and I got my first official greeting as a girl. An older lady asked if I needed any help and I said "No I am just looking." and smiled. She said "OK let me know if you do Miss." You can't buy that kind of thrill. It was ON now. I felt so powerful. I walked so proud and girlie. All nervousness disappeared. I was doing it. There is no other feeling like it in the world. Not many get to experience this or want to... but I was.
I went to the ATM to get out cash so I wouldn't have to use my boy name debit cards. I walked around the food court in my sexy jeans and my cute dusty pink pleaty top. I wore flats to not be too tall. I just measured in recently at a little over 5'9". My makeup was as perfect as its going to get. I had my little bum and hip pad boy short from Bubbles Bodywear on under the snug jeans. It must have looked pretty good because I had a guy following me slyly just behind me. I would slow and he would too. Then I would speed up and he kept right behind. He was staring at my ass. So cool. I just kept walking until I turned into Victoria's Secret. Yes, the mother of all girl candy stores. I was so in the zone. I was in this sexy little store as my girl self. It was so epic. I have dreamed about that for so long. It was getting a little late. I have no idea why malls close at 9pm. Its too damn early! I searched for and bought some cute sexy silvery panties and some cotton ones. As I was checking out, the SA told me she loved my lip gloss color. I was thinking "Hello, it a Clinique lipstick, not a gloss." I thanked her and smiled. I really wanted to say what it was and have a little girl moment but it passed.
It was mall closing time and time for me to go back out to the car. I was so sad to go. I was having so much fun. As I walked out I saw some rough characters kind of hanging around between me and my car. I got a weee bit nervous. Thankfully there were two cute guys in front of me who held the door for me. I followed close behind them and grabbed for my keys. Another real world girlie experience right there. I really did not want the night to end so I ended up going to the Olive Garden. I told the hostess that someone may be meeting me. I sat at a two person cozy table. I ordered an appetizer and a Cosmo. Yummy, I love them. I just played with my phone and ate and got kinda buzzy. I checked off another dream which was ordering in a restaurant. I think the girl voice passed the test. I still have work to do on it but I think it was fine. The only issues I had were two teenage girls looked at me and then whispered. BUT that could have been anything really. Then, a lady at the table across from me at the Olive Garden made a kind of tisk sound after I said something to my waitress. Again, that could have been anything. I could have been just hyper aware. The two hostesess whispered to each other too after the one said that my table would be ready soon. But then she said "Ma'am are you ready?" when the table was ready. So if there was any weirdness, it was so minor it was not an issue.
I cruised the strip and made my way back to the hotel blasting 80s hair metal on Sirius not wanting the night to end. I lingered long into the night talking on the phone and video chatting with my GF. It was just simply the best day of Amanda's life. It really made me think hard about a lot of things. It could be like this all of the time. Hmm. We shall see.
Here is the link again to my pics. I did add a video too I would love to see if my voice is OK and if I still look good in motion. It was processing on the site.
http://www.flickr.com/photos/girliea...7626469528796/