Seventeen years ago I told my wife about my crossdressing but I didn’t understand why I was this way, and did a terrible job of explaining it to her. My wife didn't understand but tried to be supportive. We even got me a dress, makeup and shoes. At the time we had AOL and tried a few chat rooms but everyone was just there to hook up and I kept getting IMs about having sex. This only fueled my wife's fears that I was gay or wanted a sex change, despite me telling her I was just a crossdresser. I felt a lot of guilt and shame and we soon stopped talking about it, but I continued to crossdress in secret.
Last week I found this website and discovered that I was not alone, and the posts gave me encouragement and support. I reached out to Stephanie Miller, who was in my area, and she took the time to talk with me on line and even agreed to meet me in person to discuss my many fears. The support I received from her, and others on this site, really helped me come to terms with who I am.
Last night I talked to my wife about my crossdressing for the first time since my original failure. This time I was more educated and prepared to discuss with her how I felt, and more open to her questions and fears. Well it actually took about 4 hours to get up the nerve and I fumbled through it. She was very caring and supportive and the discussion included a lot of crying, hugging and I love yous. We still have a lot to talk about but she has made me feel very comfortable in discussing this with her. I have told her about this website but I don’t know whether she will join.