hi girls yesterday i have dcided that i will open with my freind we have had a drinks party during it i have explained him that i am a crossdrer and want to share that secret to him he laughed at me saying he cant belive, then we had dinner and gone to his flat where i have got undressed and shown him my feminine body totally waxed with red panty i have offered him body to to body contact but he refused saying though i am looking good but he is not prepared mentally to do that i have not forced him but he got shocked looking at my desire tried to explain me to avoid such fantasies and become straight, i explained him my desire is geniune and need to fulfilled by my closest person. he rejected the idea with kindness towards me we slept on single bed keeping 1' distance i was very anxious to touch my body with his but waited for his response but he kept calm. my question is it mentaly restriction or me not being able to arouse him this was my second effort though first with another close freind our freindship is intact i think i should stop my desires, pl help me way out as in india its not easy.