Since I was about 16 I've Been crossdressing Once I could buy womans clothing myself is when I started crossdressing nearly almost every month but I can't come out full time I have too much on my plate to risk with that being said, I want to see if the absence of crossdressing is what I truly believe Doesn't need to be a part of my life right now I know that I can't Run away form it forever. I know It is part of who I am I'm not trying to run away form any problem I just want to set aside crossdressing right now so I can focus on important things in my life.