If I were in Michelle's shoes, I'd feel the exact same way. I'd secretly hope for more than just a friendship eventually as well, and be heartbroken if that hope was dashed. For some, that kind of bond with a woman who shares in your dressing is very very powerful, and I can't blame her for wanting to be with a woman she had shared that with. The sad reality is that here are not many women who would actively want and pursue an intimate relationship with someone like us, and I know the anger and frustration you must feel
However, I still agree with everyone else in saying that you should not purge, you will regret it later.