I am a 45 yo crossdresser/transgender/who knows what. I have been married to the woman I love for 22 years. She has always known about me but seldom participates in it. I care deeply for her and my two children (age 19 and 15). I have been on anti-depressants for years and I am a heavy drinker as is my wife. We both have high stress jobs and alcohol and other prescribed drugs seem to hide the reality of our situation.
I have grown tired as has my wife. I hide my feelings and emotions as well as my dressing and desires. I have told her i need help and she has agreed to seek some counseling with me.
Any suggestions on where to start? Do we go to a regular couples counselor or find a gender specialist. I don't know what I want and thus I have no idea where to start. I think about being female all the time but I rarely act on it. However, I have a closet full of womens clothes, shoes and underwear. I am too tall and too big to ever get by as a woman. Is there any help for me and my wife?
Help! deedee