I have been CDing since I was a young child and it wasn't until earlier this year that I confided in someone that secret that I've had for 25 yaers. Since coming out, I've explored my CDing more than ever. Before, I was ashamed and never understood my own behavior. Now after researching, I'm beginning to discover that my CDing is absolutely for sexual gratification.
What's confusing me now is that even though I feel like Transvestic fetishism is what defines my behavior, I still have thoughts that make me believe otherwise possibly. I fantasize about things that I think may go beyond the fetish, but almost always as soon as I've reached sexual gradification, I want no part of it anymore until the next urge to dress.
Basically I guess I'm still trying to figure out where I fit in.