I am not sure if the title describes how I feel. Let me explain, As a crossdresser there are various levels of dressing that will satisfy one's need and desire. Sure, I love to take it the whole 9 yards and try to look as womanly as possible at times. Well last night I was in a crazy mood. I don't know if I want to spark a reaction from people or just feel good with the limited dressing I did. First off I polished my toes a cinimom color with a clear top coat, they really popped, slipped on some cute panties, and put on some straight leg jeans. I slipped into my toe wrap sandle flats, No I wasn't done. I applied some Sephora mascrea. Still not enough I applied some light beige shadow with a sparkle to it. I was totally in guy mode except for what I mentioned. Now I do wear glasses so the shadow wasn't as apparant until I closed my eyes. I said I am taking a ride to Ac to gamble. Now A Saturday night @ Harrah's is a very busy time. I get out of my car and look down at my feet and say to myself what will prople think. What I didn't want is a bunch of JOCK guys messing with me. I had prepared what I was going to say if asked if I was wearing womens sandles. I was all over the casino playing slots, and doing what ever, The girls seemed to look down at my feet as I walked towards them but I really didn't see strange reactions. I was a bit nervous around the guys when I stood by the craps table. Did I wanted to be called a queer, faggot or a sissy , I don't know. Actually I was more nervous walking into WaWa to hit the Mac machine for some $$$ on the way home Yes I lost. Oh I forgot , I have some sweet smelling womans perfume that I sprayed on before I left the house and it stayed with me all night It was very noticable. So my question is, do I enjoy the thrill of possibly being confrounted, Or is it that I am proud of who I am and want to scream it to the world. I enjoy expressing my softer side But I am not ready to come out all the way. It's like I like to tease people with Denise. No I am not small or pettie , not all girls are.. I have been taning by the pool and my legs are trimmed down to just a few. At first I was going to wear shorts but from the waist down I looked too feminine with my shinny legs polished toes and cute sandles. And where did I go to today, the Payless website looking and womans sandles with gem stones and a little heel , what is wrong with me??? a confused Denise
PS:: I would have loved to have wore a bright red polish applied right after a SPA pedicure, now that would have sparked some contraversy