“There’s that word again – GIRL!” (from the film Hard Candy)
[SIZE="2"]In my ongoing quest to become less male, or less of a boy, I have transformed into a girl right before my eyes. This is my manifest destiny, a far shore I can never quite reach, but the effort itself has changed me – I am now the opposite of a boy, not a man, and certainly not manly. There is a special word for this blessed state: GIRL. What does “girl” mean, anyway?
Obviously, a girl is a female child or a young woman. Some believe that a female ceases to be a girl when she is 18 years old. However, others feel that “girl” can refer to any young, unmarried woman, and still others insist that a girl can be a woman of any age, married or single. A girl can be a maidservant, a sweetheart, or simply a younger form of a woman. I know many women who do not wish to be called “girl” under any circumstances – my sister is one of them. I also know a few females who like to be called girl, and they hang on to this moniker for a lifetime...
Here at MtF central, we call each other “girl” on occasion, and it sounds good, or reads well. In other parts of the forum, the word girl is frowned upon. I see no equivalent brouhaha about the word “boy,” but I digress. Speaking of boy, girl is the opposite of boy, and isn’t this what we are trying to achieve via our crossdressing? Since we were born male, we’ve been actively doing something about this unfortunate turn of events since day one, even though, for some of us, it takes time to become a girl. A magnificent undertaking, I call it, and I am placing these words among the girlhood I know and love – for us, “girl” is a term of endearment between friends or kindred spirits...
I read somewhere that girls are socialized to be sensitive, nurturing and friendly, yet they are far too often disrespected and abused by males (peers or adults). Are we MtF crossdressers disrespecting girls by wearing their clothes, emulating their posture and manners, or even trying to speak like them? Girls need lots of love, but so do boys, especially girly-boys. My girlhood is ongoing, and my behavior is openly girlish, in fact my girlishness is obvious to all. My male characteristics have been tempered or moderated out of sight, and my adopted girly characteristics speak for themselves. “What are you, a GIRL?” they say, and I reply in the affirmative. Well, I have to, don't I?
Girls rock, but not many girls would understand why a boy wants to BE a girl. In my case, I’m a Guy In Real Life (G.I.R.L.), but don’t tell anyone! I’ve met plenty of girls who don’t care a fig about girlishness, and I’ve met a few girly-girls who impressed me with their charm, manners, and gentleness – in my case, I want to be equally sensitive and gentle, and, since these attributes are attributed to girls without question, it makes things that much more difficult for a boy. The instant I display my effeminacy, I am branded a girl, but not just ANY girl – I am the kind of girl who is a soft, over-emotional human being, incapable of any true strength (as a male would define it). It’s not fair...
Since I AM a boy, and I wish to be a girl, I MUST be gay, according to the precepts of societal correctness. Much like a girl, I am a magnificent creature, gifted at an early age with the ability to empathize, significantly more emotional than my male peers, in fact it may be more beneficial to the world’s population that I am a girl (in a boy’s body). I am seen as inferior to genuine males, even though I have played a masculine role (with important modifications) to appease others for many years. Girls don’t want me to exist, but I do, and I wish they would understand that my crossdressing is neither a threat, nor a challenge to their femininity, nor a “trend” of some kind. If you’re a sensitive boy, this is a worthwhile outlet for expression, and you can emulate the girls you admire to your heart’s content. It takes some fancy footwork, but it’s fun and beautiful, also demanding, not to mention profound on a grand scale...
I read a few derogatory definitions of “girl” recently. They said that “A girl is the creation of Satan, designed to destroy the existence of mankind,” and “Simultaneously the best and worst thing that God created.” I’m pretty sure that insensitive males wrote those, probably ones who didn’t give and subsequently didn’t receive. Anyway, if being a GIRL is so bad, where does it leave boys like us who worship girls and girlishness without question, and then try to become what we admire? Granted we don’t all subscribe to the same notion of femininity, nor do we express ourselves uniformly – is it any wonder that nobody can truly understand the whys and wherefores of crossdressing, since the concept of “girl” is an abstract notion that defies description? You can be the girl you want to be, and good luck doing so, since you’re in uncharted waters, adrift in a sea of gender confusion, a long way from that shore I mentioned...
The simplest definition of GIRL is “not a boy,” and that’s exactly what I’m trying to be: not-a-boy. Why? Girls are COOL, and I wouldn’t be here without them (in more ways than one). Just as I’ve always done, I worship girls daily at my local (nearest) closet. I am SUCH a girl...
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“A girl phoned me the other day and said... 'Come on over, there's nobody home.' I went over. Nobody was home.” (Rodney Dangerfield)
man, i feel like a woman 
Originally Posted by TGMarla
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