So this evening was supposed to be my first time out as Katie. I had it all planned, the outfit, where i was going to go, what i was going to do etc.
I got myself ready, make up all done, clothes all on, i was ready to go i didn't want to walk to the car in my heels so i wore flat ballet pumps, and i didn't wear my wig, just in case a neighbour was looking out their window, i had my boots, wig, hairbrush etc in a bag with me.
I jumped in my car and drove off after a few miles i stopped to put on the wig and my boots, then continued my journey as Katie she was out of the house!
My plan was to go to a small shopping centre about 20miles from home, when i got there i was going to walk through and then back to my car.
I got to the shopping centre, parked up checked my hair and make up, got out of the car and then i couldn't move!! I could not make myself walk to the shopping centre, i have no idea why, i really really wanted to. So i got back in the car and came home.
I'm so upset and cross with myself for not doing it. Opportunities to go out are very rare for me. I don't know why I couldn't do it, maybe i'd have been able to if i'd been further from home? or a different time of day? or if i'd had someone with me?
Just wanted to share this with you all. Has it happened to anyone else? Any ideas tho help me next time please.
Thank you
Katie