Hello!
I am a twenty-year-old college student and recently I have been attending therapy because of many suicide attempts, etc. I have questioned my sexuality before and hated my feminine appearance but I pushed these thoughts aside due to certain circumstances. Now that I am in therapy, these thoughts are back and I know that I can no longer ignore them because it is unhealthy.
I am attracted to females much more than males but I admire CDs and MtF. I would like to date a male crossdresser, even if he wanted to make the final transition to a female, because it feels much more comfortable.
As for my own gender... I hate my breasts. A lot. I like to have a girly boy appearance and I could pull it off if it weren't for my chest. I want to have breast reduction but I have a lot of fears. I am not sure how to tell my family and friends... I told a few friends so far and their reaction was just as I expected, but I was lucky they they didn't push me away.
I honestly feel confused and scared... I need advice and help, but I'm afraid that people are just going to push me aside and consider me as someone who's faking or something along that line. -sigh-
Sorry if this post is messed up but I am tired, have a headache, and feel very messed up.