Been wearing womens under garments since I was 12, now 50. Mostly for sexual satisfaction. Moved to dresses, shoes, fingernails, now in the last couple of months a wig. The clothing is still a real turn on, but now I notice when dressed I am so much more relaxed, and love the feel of feeling like I am a woman. Just in the last month, I have been going out at night, walking downtown in historic sections of town, or going to an outlet mall right after closing, just to walk around. What an incredible feeling. I just went to a McD's drive thru, and the attendant looked like she was pissed, I don't know if it was me, or the fact that she was just tired. It's like I am slowly branching out, inching into the water with my toe to see if it is cold, meaning, do I pass??? So how can I safely tell if I pass???