Several years back, when I was still single, I had the usual crossdressing cycle. When I got with my girlfriend, I purged everything. I told her I liked wearing panties, and she was shocked at first, but then was fine with it and supported it. So that was great, and I was very happy being able to wear panties all the time. I never thought about wearing anything beyond panties, and I thought that was what I needed - someone I loved that kept me rooted.
As time passed, and we got married, I was "clean", panties were all I wore, and I was really happy with the arrangement. And then the fights - fights themselves are normal in any relationship. But what happened was that it got worse and worse each fight, and there didn't seem to be any solution. Whatever I was trying was not working, and her anger would get worse, and the things she said would get nastier, with each fight. At some point, it got so bad I felt really, really hurt very deeply, and that was when it started. "It" being the thoughts of crossdressing. And to "support" that thought, I would go shopping. At first I bought sports bras, and wore them at work. Then I would wear them to the gym (under male clothes). I also bought a women's polo tee, which I have been wearing out (they look like the kind of more fitted clothes that metrosexual men wear). Crossdressing seems to... comfort me. I don't know why. After every fight, the urge to crossdress gets stronger, and I get bolder and bolder. I thought I was done with crossdressing. But it turns out I can't run away from it.