Little background.
I have always been analytical and logical and always in control, not “emotional”. Nothing shocks me or surprises me. My Ex wife, 35 years ago once stated “if the roof fell in you wouldn’t even blink”. This may not have been an exaggeration.
That being said…
Last night I was changing my profile, removing “Telecommunications” as Occupation. I had thought “occupation’, job. Who cares where I work. Let me put something meaningful in there.
Job, well my Job in life is.... and I quickly typed this up.
"Occupation: Just trying to live a good and decent life so maybe, just maybe if I'm very lucky, somebody will think of me now and then after I'm gone."
I was thinking there were too many characters and then, OMG, I stated crying, tears where rolling down my face. This went on for 10 minuets’ It was amazing. I have been fully embracing the fem side of myself for a month now dressing and going out 6-7 times.
I have also seen small changes in “guy” me, little bit of a skip in my step, more complementary of others and a little flirty. Gesturing when I talk?, I have never done this but apparently I do now. These are small changes and did not come as a big surprise. But waves of emotion swelling up in me I didn’t think I was capable of these feelings. Guess Jackie sees more meaning in what I wrote than "drab analytical guy" at least I hope that's what's going on.
Over the years I have been on the internet a lot but never herd or seen anything regarding strong emotions and crossdressing. If this is part of girl power, then Ill just go with it, enjoy a good cry once and a wile and carry extra tissues.