When I first started dressing, I remember wearing anything and everything girly. My excitement would grow if I knew I had at least one girly thing on . . . panties, socks, pantyhose.
As my dressing evolved, it grew into finding a complete outfit . . . dress, tights, heels or blouse, slacks, heels. The next phase was accessorizing . . . necklace, bracelets, clip-on earrings, and purses. Then comes the makeup phase.
Here I am 27 years later and my dressing has taken the next step of wigs, shopping en femme, and interacting with SAs. The other thing I've noticed is that I am no longer satisfied with just getting away with wearing something girly for a short amount of time. I have become greedy and I usually won't dress unless I foresee a 4-5 hour outing.
I am a bit scared to figure out where I go from here . . . still closeted and still trying to build the courage to tell my wife. Is this still just for fun or is there more to my dressing? I'm afraid to explore the answer to this question. I want to say it's still my private little hobby but it seems to be more than a hobby now.
Should I be worried?!? I am definitely in a confused state right now and often feel a bit depressed when I know the next time I can dress is a long ways away.
Sorry just venting and trying to figure things out.