I'm in bit a rush, but I just had to share a funny thing that happen a few minutes ago.
I'm dressing to go into work for a couple of hours. I dress outwardly endrab when I go to work. Since it's Saturday, and officially, I'm off the clock, I will be wearing male levi's 501 and a polo shirt, but I have my panties on under.
Ok, so, I'm looking for one of my sneakers, and the first place I reach is under the bed. So, far, pretty routine. I extend my arm under the bed and feel for the shoe and I fell the normal dusty bunnies,some boxes.. etc.. and then I feel something different. What! what is that.. mmmm I grab it and pull it out.
Out comes in my little palm, a rolled up stocking, I've been looking for sometime!
HA! that's where you been.
Now you know you're a gurl in good standing when you no longer hide your femme clothing and they become part of your everyday life in a way.! Ha!
Cassie has arrived and she's here to stay! HA
I know this sounds ... "Is that All, Sheeee! " But for someone who's has struggled to accept his femme side, it's a revelation, breakthrough.
Even as recent as two years ago, you would have never found one iota of clothing laying around my apt. I kept it all hidden, nicely folded in a couple of boxes, in the upper shelf of a closet.
Now, although I still have limited items, my wardrobe is growing every paycheck and will, it's just too much having to keep Cassie's things, scratch that, my things separated to the point that it's causing me stress.
I always lived alone, so it was not the fear of anyone finding my femme items, it was the fear of me seeing what I really was everyday. Self-Acceptance can be the hardest acceptance to achieve. I'm a work in progress.
Thanks to all you wonderful gurls, girls, ladies, women, for showing your courageous selves to me. You've shown me that being who you are, is not a bad thing and I am not alone. You've shown me having broad shoulders, and biceps, is only the shell of who you are on the inside. I love being male, and sometimes, I even feel manly, haha. but being Cassie...Oh My Lord.... it's just the BEST!
All this from just one rolled up stocking under a bed... My, My..
Ok, I've got to go...
Talk Soon!
Cassie