I’m sorry this came out so long just it like so much happen all at once. I spell checked it to thou. All my mistakes made me see ya my writing sucks so I should stop cursing and think more like homework. Sorry about my other posts bein a "teenage girl" mess. LOL
My mom is cool and I love her and all but Stacy’s mom understands me more I guess is like she’s a second mom to me and we like take turns living at each others house all the time. So I’m at Stacy’s and she he had to work so I was going to leave but her mom said I could hangout there with her cause she knew my mom wasn’t around and Id be sitting home alone.
So were talking and she’s asking why I do the stuff I do then says Stacy told her about the clothes. We talked for a while and well she asked if I was afraid what Stacy thinks and do I want to do more. I didn’t answer and finally she says let me help you be a girl. I was totally shocked! I just sat there thinking I didn’t know what to say and I finally asked her well what do you mean be a girl?!? She’s like just let me try some little things. UHH Like what? Your hair can be nicer and maybe something not black on your nails. OK you know I can do that. And maybe trim those eyebrows can I do them just a bit they will grow back. But that’s it? So I said ya and took the polish I had off and took a shower.
She did my eyebrows and straightened my hair and they looked great I mean nobody likes a unibrow right? And all this time she’s like not to much? You doing ok? Ya this ain’t to bad. And I did my nails quick. Then she’s like some makeup? Im like well I can do that and she’s like no not your way more like a girls. LOL. I did do my eyeliner myself lol and she did the rest she one eye and kept showing me like keep going? Ya its ok you can just do it it comes off right? lol I looked like a girl you know uh more like a girl.
OK come see what I picked out. Wait what?!? What stuff? Clothes. When? When I was in the shower DUH! All she kept saying was we can stop if you want and you ok. Come on I will buy you ice cream when were done lol it’s this joke like please please one more thing I promise. OK after trying a bunch of stuff I was wearing a denim skirt gray legings gray boots a blue top and gray hoodie. Like totally a outfit Stacy would rock out. Til I like raided her clothes with her mom LOL I never noticed for a girl that does not like being called girlie she has a lot of girlie clothes.
We talked more about me and me and Stacy and me thinking maybe Stacy liking me more then friends and I fell on the couch. I wanted to change before she got home cause her mom said we had to talk me and Stacy about me and her. BUT I got woke up by Stacy yelling OMG! Look at you and a skirt and OMG you have boobs to! That made me laugh and feel better and not all weird being in front of her like this. LOL After she like calmed down and looked me over and spun me around she dragged me to her room.
So Im sitting on her bed while she’s taking her makeup off and her mom comes out of her room and looks at me and I looked at her then Stacy then her again and I guess she saw the scared look on my face because she tells Stacy to go inside and for me to stay. uhhh. She was talking for like 1/2hr and like all I kept hearing over n over again was confused fragile emotional and girl.
So Stacy comes back in and says go talk to my mom while I change. Not like mean or get out but when she said it I felt like she didn’t want me seeing her change. So I asked her mom what happened?!? Why did she throw me out? She didn’t. I wanted to tell you everything is going to be fine and we are here for you ok. What?!? What about the other thing? And she said Stacy will explain. Ok so like is it ok for us to you know be inside together still? Its ok so go talk to her.
I totally got all this stuff with me and Stacy so wrong!!!! I’m an idiot. All this stuff I thought she was doing because maybe she liked me liked me was because your like one of the girls. She feels safe around me. She didn’t think it means anything. Were just friends OK. So you never liked me ever that way? No I’m sorry you got the wrong idea. BUT I didn’t! It made me feel sort of weird and stupid cause I could not tell the diff btw friends and want to be your girlfriend. I’m glad in a way cause she is such a great friend to me and it was confusing cause I like her and the stuff she does is nice but it made me feel weird before but now it’s cool I’m happy she loves me. You know like a friend. And I don't have to sleep on the couch