Last night I had a chat on Facebook that has really gotten me to thinking about where Robyn came from. My new friend told me that while she came to CDing relatively late in life, she did have some incidents in her teens, that she described in detail, that demonstrated that she has long had the desire to dress.
This raised some memories for me that I hadn't thought about in decades, but now have me thinking long and hard about who is Robyn? Where did she come from? How long has she been there? While I'm more self assured now more than ever before about the girl inside me - that is, I am now comfortable that she is there and that she needs an outlet - I'm still on what will likely be a long road to self discovery.
As some of you may have seen elsewhere here, last month I returned to dressing after a purge two years ago. I began CDing somewhat seriously about 5 - 6 years ago - relatively late in life. It seems that most of you here talk about having started CDing very young, at least in your teens and it's been suggested to me that adult onset CDing like mine is not the norm. So, while I've been rationalizing it all for the past several years as a long evolution, it now occurs to me that there were some early incidents that may indicate that I do have some latent feminine feelings and desires that developed much earlier in my life. And there is little doubt in my mind now that societal pressures repressed those desires, for a long time.
It's going to be a very interesting road ahead and where it will take me, I don't know. But I do know I love being Robyn. I love how girly and flirty and happy and confident I feel when I am Robyn. It's exhilarating. And the more I find the opportunity to let Robyn out, the more I will understand her.
I don't know if this is the right forum for all of this, so I apologize to the moderator in advance if my thread needs to be moved, but it feels good to get this out and I welcome, and would appreciate, any comments, observations, experience or advice from all.
Thanks.
xo