[SIZE=3]I've contemplated much of the wisdom on this forum, and even some of the folly, to try to come to grips with the hidden motivations for my crossdressing. I may never understand fully, but the engineer in me has to try ...
The feminine model in my mind is far from the weak submissive that has been postulated by some. Shaped by my experiences with my mother, sisters, grandmothers, aunts, and some of the rural women I knew, I first think of women as endowed with an inner strength beyond that of most men. Their outward femininity is part of the same package that thinks before reacting irrationally, shows care and tenderness toward others while looking beyond weakness, and is able to show the sensitivity needed to best bring together those around them. My wife is also one of these women, and I admire them all.
This feminine model contrasts with a loud, dominant, or inflexible person, who's inability to find a common purpose with others yields a facade of strength, but who's fragility under fire reveals otherwise. And it's clearly different from the weak submissive who blows with the wind in an attempt to get along with all, yet stands for nothing. I have much less respect for those at either end of this spectrum.
I could only be motivated to crossdress if the feminine form I emulate is one I admire, and I would find it unacceptable to emulate a woman if it was inconsistent with the inner strength that I value most highly. I must conclude that the strong feminine model is at the very least an enabler for my crossdressing, and perhaps the prime motivator. More study is definitely needed.
While it's clear that purpose and lifestyles vary considerably within this forum, I've seen enough to suspect that many of you might share very similar motivations to what I've described above. What do you think? How would you reshape this to fit your approach to life?
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