Originally Posted by
AudreyTN
It sounds to me like you just need to take some time to yourself and figure things out. You sound very burdened and troubled, and when that happens, it's best to go find a nice long nature trail to hike, collect your thoughts, do something fun you enjoy, like photography or writing a personal journal, or whatever it may be, relax, get your mind off your troubles, breathe, meditate, or just find some form of peaceful serenity and find what it is in your life that you want for YOU.
if you're married to someone you love, obviously there is trust and compassion. If that person loves you, then they will accept you for you, and accept your decision. The best thing you can do to help them ease the shock is to be prepared to answer questions, print off some informative information so they can read about your condition and options, then discuss it with them. If they walk away, then they dont really love you for who you are inside, they're only interested in what you look like and it's all superficially based, and you deserve better than that. If she understands and loves you, she will stick by your side whatever you decide, and it may take a bit for her to come around, because I'm sure the initial shock will take some time to wear off.
be true to yourself though. if you can't be true to yourself, then you're not living for you, and you can have a wife, and kids and a house, and things and money, but it won't bring you the happiness you seek. you might be happy with those things or people, but being happy for yourself and with yourself is an entirely different thing.
Life is wonderful, crazy, terrible, cruel, miraculous, amazing, depressing and joyous vicious thing, it's a roller coaster, and it doesn't play fair, at the end of the day the only one you have to answer to is the person looking back in the mirror and the man upstairs (God). (and no I'm not saying you shouldn't be responsible to your children, house and financial obligations, because you should).