Ok, I'll try not to bore you with the details, But I probably will...
I am so happy right now!
First of all, nobody that knows me has ever seen me dressed, or even knows that I dress. Scares the heck out of me if they ever would. However. this last week has been particularly rough for me, so I've been trying to keep my mind on other things...
The other night while taking my time and grocery shopping, one of my best friends texts me, nothing much, just general chit chat like always. I don't get to see her very often as she lives about 150 miles away, in fact the last time we saw each other was in '09, but we keep in touch on facebook and texts. Anyway, back to the story, somehow we got to talking about rumors about each other and she told me one, and I said..."oh wow, not what I thought you were going to say". Sooo, she started guessing, and after a few subtle clues from me, she says, "you dress girly". I could have said No, but at that moment, I realized that this girl is the one person in the whole world that I would actually trust with this deep, dark, secret of mine....she's not judgemental, either...but with something like this, you never know...
Fast forward to yesterday...worst day I've had in a long time, I haven't dressed in a couple of months I think, and last night I just couldn't think of anything that would be better to do to get my mind off of my problems... 8:30, dressed and out the door, I hop in my car and just take off. Wasn't sure where I was going until I was halfway there...(there's a statement!) I text my friend to see what she's up to, and she gives me directions to her place. I explain to her that she might be surprised to see me...
So I get to her place, and she's outside waiting for me. 11:30 at night, and she hops in my car and looks at me with that awesome, warm smile of hers and has nothing but good things to say about my looks, and my hair, and how well my makeup is. I explained a few things to her, she asked a few questions. She made me feel so good about myself and had not one bad word, not one look of disappointment, not one bad thing at all. I didn't know what to expect for sure, but I'm still smiling because of how glad I am to have her as friend. She's already making plans to take me shopping at some great thrift stores she frequents!
Anyway...didn't mean to bore you, but I had to tell you all how wonderful it feels to have finally told someone and to have finally shown someone! I know my secret is safe with her so I'm not worried, but it is so nice to have finally told her. I've known her since we went to school together and she never had a clue that I cd'd.
Suzanne
Live, Laugh, and Love Yourself!
Thanks for sharing.
