I haven't posted anything in a very long time. Some of you may remember me. I told my wife about my cross dressing after 15 1/2 years and it did not go well. We were in counseling for two years. It's been a little over a year since that ended and we are still together. We had an absolutely, unbelievable wonderful marriage and I believe that that is the reason we are still together.
Our psychologist met with her privately for over a year and she followed his guidance in an attempt to hold on to what we had. I know she tried but it finally was too much for her. She began to sob one night while we were intimate and confessed that she had no attraction for me any more and, in fact, felt "revoltion" although that might be too strong a term. That was about two years ago and we haven't been intimate since. I sense she is uncomfortable around me. She put a lock on her closet door and now sleeps in pajamas. We do share a bed, however.
I still love this woman but I really blew it. Ironically, I haven't dressed since I told her....not out of fear of being 'found out' but rather because I haven't any desire to. For me it was truly a lose/lose situation.
I am hoping that trust returns. I will do nothing to hurt this woman any more.
When I first told her she retaliated with threats. None of these came about. She would never try to destroy me - and I knew it at the time. When she calmed down some with the help of our psychologist, she gave back to me all the downloaded e mails, pictures, etc., etc. She desperately wants to be happy again but it doesn't seem attainable. What we have left if a peaceful coexistence. We don't fight and, to the world, we are still the wonderfully happy couple we once were.
Maybe there is hope for us somewhere down the line.
Although I don't care to dress I still have an interest in "things feminine". Some of you were very supportive when this debacle happened. I will always be grateful for that support.